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Thursday, 30 April 2009

lol Quote, Love doesnt faile, people do.

      Theirs no such thing as sould mates lol... with that in mind, i want to just have fun for a few years to go lol.
Love is learned, just like loving your parents and when its not acquired and practiced, you pick up your dad shotgun and shoot your moms head off, like the rest of the young kids who have done it.

             Life is like that and I can't learn to love a stranger if I don't find them appealing or If I'm not attracted to them, and even male peacocks know about that, "shake your talefeather" lol as earth species we tend to try to attract a mate to simply reproduce, we simply wouldnt if it wasnt pleasurable or essential in life.
i cant stand people who cant let go of things.

          If he doesnt want to, he/she might later want to,, everything happens for a reason simply because we had a reason to choose it. its not destiny, its by all our life choices and our lives encountering each other in coinsidence...

if i didnt know christianity and loved it, i would probably have a child or two of each man i encountered with infactuation lol because i like im latina and i have a paper heart.

   someday i will learn to love the man i marry, but if i dont ... maybe even i will grab that shotgun lol

Monday, 23 March 2009

Love you man!

...so my mom has to pay this weekend for college...so i dont blame her, she loves school and i love school too.

      I was on youtube and i was listening to christiano, a footballer in portuguese i think - and i wish their were more guys like him out their, I LOVE HIM - hes awesome...they asked him what was his favorite subject in school and he said science but mostly sports because he loves discipline.
       Discipline, I love that. Today I actually ate healthy, because I loved hearing that. It inspired me.
            I made cake last night and mmm I dont want it. Im hungry to learn to be disciplined as a challenge. I ate shrimp, it was totally refreshing and a salad tuna, I'm so happy today.
                         Its so hard to find someone to say that and to say they miss their mom and family and to say "with jehovahs will"
OMYGOD! BE MY BFF!!!!! I wish i had a best friend like that, everyone is so empty and dry in personality.

   I like body builders or anyone who is a sports lover and loves to not take care of themeselves but loves challenges and enjoys seeing their body and mind transform...I miss my sis so much I want to cry.

Friday, 13 March 2009

i actually eat healthy...my fault is that i use food to have a fun conversation when she comes from work. and she doesnt even talk to me, 70% of the time she watches tv and it freaks me out, and im not going to start talking to annoying people on the phone, all the friends im made are so bitchy and i just dont like their voice, they are conceited with me and they tl cra about my sister. im not going to talk to them , only if my sister knew.

i wanna go to theature and just live and get in chior and be me.!!!

god i cant let go of the past...i feel like i would be so happy it finnally all burned down.
                      I need to get in the bottom of this all...first of all can a nineteen year old have cancer...for awhile I think it can be proven, I want to get my boobs scan.
                     anyways...Auggie traumatized me, wow 17 and little did I discover-maybe thats why I screw around now, love doesnt have to be a chest game and I won't get hooked, Ive always said this.
                                  It's so pathetic when woman get hooked over louzy pudgy dirt poor men and I JUST WONT.

                          I would go nuts if i was tom brady's ex ONLY if he was a multi bilionaire and i mean, thats all their worth really...
                                       ...most guys by 26 [by experience by auggie] get upset for the fact that girls are becoming supposely more selfish with their needs - im srri but if most guys cannot maintain themselves and still expects to be around and have kids and not take care of them and CHEAT and believe we will be head over heels YEAH RIGH?...seriously I'd bet I 'd get better orgasms with a billionaire.
               idk I remember last time i lost over 110lbs, i told myself i would marry a billionaire. thats silly because im the one who's becoming the billionaire and im truly gorgeous.
     Alot of guys argue about girls that we are self-centered and we are only looking for hard cash....and lets be honest im super pretty but who do you prefer???...
          The skinny/ kind of ugly compare to me kind of girl...and who does she prefer...if she smart enough A RICH MAN... you say that's rude but then you should call that "the awakening"...then I guess your interests are only conditional so that's how smart women are too...who cares righ?
                               In these days, it's hard to satisfy me too.
                ...their isnt such a thing as unconditional love nowadays....and seriously I grew up being treated really bad that you know between the age of 5-8 I kinda understood how it feels to be treated like crap and continiously through my life, big and bigger harrassments became frequent and normal to me so you know more girls dream about romance while I'm thinking about lust and cock and shopping sprees ... idk im just a normal girl who life hit her harder and sooner than normal and you know life experiences made me know the true meaning of better being safe than sorry.
           And obcourse I have fallen in Dumb-Infatuations with poor guys too, only TWO.
umm idk but they were really poor. one was in HS and the other one was right after HS at summer and we spilled the champagnes literally in 4th of July. The day after I met him<3 WOW I'm a clutch I know...mmm he was so cute and idk we were dumb and I was just a young samantha in its best beginning chronicles [SIT...City]
                                                                         im so pretty, idk what im doing to myself.